First time I knew I like being tied up

I've been asking about first time I knew I like being tied up.

It is question which in fact hasn't answer. Could you say when your first time you knew you want to have sex? You just see other people and find some of them attractive and you feel you want to get closer to them. You could never have sex but you know you like it. How long you know? Maybe you can answer I can't.

When I was young I had a dreams when I went asleep. I was dreamming I'm bound and helpless in predicament. Somebody managed my boundaries and I could do nothing. When I was awake I was not scared but aroused. I wanted to know how to be bound in real. What is the real feeling of this. In dreams you can't feel things correctly especially if you never experienced it. So there was no pain in my freams there was imagine of pain and excitation.

Thats why I've begun to try things. Some of them was really stupid but I was a child. Once I've tried to be tied up by hands hanging from tree. One end of rope I've attached to branch the second one has a loop. Simple loop which is strengthen on tension. I put my hands to loop and jumped from branch. Lucky for me the rope has broken off before it my hands did it. I felt I did something stupid but it didn't cool down me.

The funny thing is, when I started to bound myself I never heard about bdsm or bondage. I just was aroused when I saw girls tied in movies. Heroines which needed helps. Anyway if you could recommend a movie I would be pleased :)

Main issue with tasks

I love to get tasks from you. But there is one little issue which makes tasks, I don't know... less attractive? I always assume that when I'm locked and secured then every move and every method to get free is allowed. Which means if I'm tired to lay down restrained and I see scissors on desk which I have forgotten and I can reach them somehow then I will do it.

So, the issue with task is that you often want me to do something during session which I'm not forced to do. So if you tell me: "before you release yourself you have to torture your nipples with key". So probably I avoid this part. Up to you is to set up scenario, up to me is to get free. It doesn't mean scenario don't have to have release method.

That's why scenario: "masturbate with one our then you can cum" is not attractive at all.

There are some exceptions from this rule. When I task contains something which I've never done and it is interesting I could do it without being forced. But please, consider it as exception.

Simple hogtied

I've tried to do something simple. I love to be hogtied, so I decided to do this.

First I tied full body rope harness.

Second I attached my ice release to the rod on door. It is little pouch with ice pulled throught a o-ring. Close to the pouch is the key attached to rope fallen down to floor. So I can pull rope but until ice is not melt I can't reach the key.

Then I tied my feet. I've made two loops. One kept my ankles together second was on the middle of my feet. Next I tied legs under kneels.

I'd like too have idea how to connect with rope my hands cuffed behind and my feets. I mean without risk that I cut blood circulation when I struggle. Thats why to be in hogtie position I always attach feet to something else. I this time I've attached them to top of my body harness, near neck but entire pressure was on my shoulders. The rope connecting my shoulders and feet had shortening mechanism. I needed only to pull one end of the rope to make it as short as I wanted.

When I lied on the floor tied I've cuffed myself. Of course the key was already on ice mechanism. Then I pulled my "hogtie" rope tight. I've forgot to mention I had a ball gag yet.

When I've tried to struggle I felt that I've made a good job and everything is tight. Then I've realised that I don't know where is my escape rope. I had to struggle a little to find it and reach by hand. I often attach it to my hand before I lock hands. This time I just forgot to do that. Now I had to pull it periodically to check if ice is melted.

One of the fun thing with hogtie (or be tied at all) is that many muscles of your body are getting tired. It is kind of nice to feel little pain when you try to move.

But after some time I was afraid that I'm tied a little too long. I didn't know how much time left but I was tired a bit too much and under my head was pool of saliva. But when I pull rope nothing happen. I knew that ice is going to melt but I wanted to know why it takes so long.

At the end I was realy exhausted. My muscled had pain in every move and I barely could pull escape rope. But after all ace melted and I reach the key. When I release myself and slowly untied. I watched th o-ring and I realized it was smaller that I always use.

How much time I was in that position?

3 hours.

The moments of the shame

Someone on OSA page asked me about my most embarrassing moment in my selfbondage adventures. 

First of all I’m too smart to be caught in my selfbondage session from someone from my family or friends. Anyway I had some fulish mistakes. 

First time I was caught in rope’s game when I was child. It was not sexual related I think. Just we wanted to know how it feels to be tied. It was in my home and my brother caught us when she was tying me in hogtie - we didn’t know this name yet. He was laughing and called my parents to see that. But my friend has enough time to untie me. Se even my parents had known about our fun they didn’t see me like that.

Next embarrassing moment was when I had about 16years old and I’ve learned how to make body harness. I was exploring my sexuality and love to bondage. I made a harness and wanted to take a walk. To make it more spicy I wore a short dress and no panties. I had panties made from rope. On top I put a jeans jacket to hide a rope because it was visible under my shirt. I went to other side of my city by city’s transport and I went to the park there. There were boys playing football and I wanted to watch them for a while. There was a moment I had to throw back their ball because it was out. When I bend to get it the wind pull my skirt up and show them my ropes. They saw this and got laugh. They made jokes etc. and I had to run away because I was ashamed.

Last time I’ve made a little mistake was this year when I was home alone and I was hungry. I called for pizza and started to set my staff. I was in the middle of this when I heard bell of my door. Of course I wear a clothes and I opened the door. I paid for pizza and then I realized that I didn’t close door to my room and the man saw my staff. „Have a nice day!” he said with a smile. „Thank you” I responded and close the door fast. 

Up and down standing electro predicament

Task was from OSA but the user has deleted his account and I lost original text.

Tools used:
- electro butt plug
- spider gag
- posture collar
- nipple clamps - i've choosen pretty strong clamps to prevent them to slip from my nipples.
- rope

Scenario:
1. Nipple clamps connected with floor by rope. It need to be long enough to be loose when I stand flat and short to be tight when I stand on toes.
2. Butt rope harness attached to ceil. It need to be long enough to be loose when I stand on toes and short to be tight when I stand flat.
3. Butt plug in place set to uncomfortable level.
4. Weared: posture collar and spider gag, hair

The main idea is that when I stand flat on the floor I should feel tension on my pussy and when I stand on toes I should have pain on my nipples.

I was excited about this task because it involve selfbondage in its nature. But I had no empty appartement to do that a long time. I've prepared environment. For floor's anchor I used my brother's dumbdell (35kg). Pull rode was ceil anchor. I've made breast harness to support my breasts and to have safe anchor on my body.

I've prepared release ice mechanism (about my release mechanisms I write in other page in future) and attached it to pull rope. Ice shoud melt in 30min.

I've put butt plug on place then I've made butt harness which push plug deeper. For now it was turned off. Then I've put posture collar and spider gag, then nippleclamps. I've attached ropes connecting butt harness with pull rope and nippleclamps with dumbdell.

I've secured myself by rope connected my breasts harness on my back and pull rope. It was long enough to let me stand flat on my feet but it prevets my to get lower. It was because I could bend my body to slip nippleclamps off. Now I couldn't do it.

Then I've adjusted length of ropes attached to my nipples and butt restraints. When everything was prepared correctly I turned on my electro butt plug to level I can bare but is not comfortable. Then I cuff my hand behind my back.

Now I had to wait until ice melt to get a key. I've decided to stand on my flat feet at the beginning but I've made rope little to short and I can stand on both feet barely. But it was really hurting so I've tried to stand on one foot and change it when tired. It helps a little but no so much. I don't know how long I stand like that because I can't see my watch. I felt my saliva on my pussy leaking throught my body. My breath was fast and I felt pleasure with pain. The rope wipping my clit made me aroused and aching. Electro shocks made me screaming. When pain was to large I've decided to stand on my toes. My nipples was hurt anyway even when I stand flat. Now I felt how much there were sore. This move brought a wave of pain to my brain. But my pussy reliefed. It was worth. Now I didn't want to fall down to flat feet. Even I felt pain of pulled nipples. I checked my rescue line connected to release mechanism but nothing happened. My toes are tired too quickly. I didn't want to but I had to fall down to flat feed. There was no relief for my nipples. This move hurt. It hurt also my sore pussy. But there was also a pleasure. I was tired already but ice didn't melt. I would write about progressive pain each time I made a move. I don't know how many moves I've done about 15? maybe. At the end I can barely stand at all. When I tried to stand on toes it was short. Fortunatelly I forgot to set longer time to butt plug and it turned off after 15 min. When the ice melted I was exhausted and sweaty. My hands were shaking. But I released myself pretty fast. First I put off my nipple clamps then I screamed or something similar because of gag. Next I untied ropes which were securing my to ceiling and I fell down to the floor.

It think I have to repeat it in future :)

[Rejected]Butt plug licking

This task I've rejected because a health risk. In a butt there are bacteries that may cause huge health damage when somebody put it to mouth. I won't do that tasks, so please be aware of that.

Have read your post this time, I want you to finally use that enema you have been too scared to use, fill your ass up and clean it out a few times. Each time try to hold it a little longer or until you get to 5 mins. I then want you to fuck your ass with your butt plugs moving up in size, after you have finished with each plus I want you to suck it clean (this is why you may want to do the enema more than once). Only once you have the biggest plug in your ass may you cum

Bound Anna: Solitude

This is my report to scenario from Bound Anna page named Solitude.

First prepared spread bar and the most difficulty was how to make it unescapable. My spread bar was made from wood. I made a hole in a center and tie my cuffs to bar with cable tie pulled through this hole. I attached my ankle's cuffs to each end of bar. Then I attached bar to radiator. Last thing was release mechanism. I attached to a ceil my electro magnet and set it to one hour to turn off. Then I "glue" key to my cuffs to this magnet. Key was attached to twine to prevent me to lost it. I cuff my legs to bar then I wore my sensory deprivation hood on my head and made it tight. I had two holes on mouth to breath. Then I cuff my wrists.


Honestly I didn't think it is something difficult in this task. And I didn't know why it is in moderate, not easy, section. Then I realized that it is not easy to breath in hood. I hade two holes, so I tried to make as deep breaths as I can. It was mistake. I should breath normally. I felt dizzy and sicken. Then I started to panic but it was not my first time and I knew I have to calm down. After a few minutes - I think -  everything returned to normal. How much time expired? When the key drops down? Maybe it has fallen already. I tried to find a twine in air with my hands. I tried to jerk. My butt and back had pain - I sat in not comfortable position long time. Entire time I tried to find key. I wanted to release and key might drop in any time. What if I lost it already? My panic returned. It was harder to stop it this time. I was tired and wanted to stand. Then I felt a twine. It was key. I released my hands then my head and I lied on my backs a while. Then I released myself completely.

I thought it will be a little boring at the beginning but I didn't realize the evil idea behind this waiting.